Good Grief

You know how you think you're over something? And you pray about it, and tell yourself that its ok, its done and over with, and you're a stronger person, blah blah blah? And then something happens that makes you go (sayy wwhhhaattt?!?!) "outta character"? Yeah, well I just had one of those moments. Would you like to know what caused this? Of course. A nickname.

This guy, sweet and honest, genuine guy, called me by a name that I thought I would never hear again; I mean, it was kinda of weird and unexpected the first time I heard from someone else. But to hear it again? I know that I must sound totally bonkers and like a baby, "It's a name get over it." But when he called me this, I flipped out. Not necessarily on him, but to myself (we were talking on line) and to my friend who was on the phone. This name and I, have bad blood.

The person who gave me this nickname, was a very, very good friend of mine; meant alot to me. And it so happened that we're not friends anymore (we are on FB though, see the delete or not delete comes back). I don't know what happened. I tried talking and making contact; I guess they were done with me, done with our friendship. Whatever. It's just sad that I won't let this new guy (nothing major yet, relax, slow your rolls.. lol) call me by this name.. Does it matter? Why can't I? It hurts, has too many memories.

I know!! It's just a nickname!!!