It's ok

So, I am currently going to somethings amd realized that, we as humans as people need support and acknowledgement for our feelings. We need to be validated. We need someone to tell us it's going to be ok and that even when we feel alone, God is always there for us; no matter what. That when people leave us or disappoint us, God never will.

What we don't need is someone telling us that we are alone in our struggle. That no one will be there to help us, ever. That we need to watch our own back. That's what freaking wrong woth society. We are so self obsessed and progressing ourselves that we become this beings who dont two shits about anybody else. And the worst thing is, when its people who are supposed to be compassionate and loving, because they're Savior was such. Yes, there are Christians who forget what it means to be God's love, God's children.

I understand that at times, I there will be no one to help me financially or otherwise. I grew up without a father,  without a real male figure. So hearing that I am alone in my struggle hurts my very soul. I understand that my dad won't be there for me and my mom (as much as she would like to help me) isnt capable. I get that I need to be the support for my family. But being the support for them and for others, and then being told that I am alone, is like a stab in the heart. I know I'm alone, I dont need to be reminded. The onlt thing that keeps me going is God and His amazing grace.

I don't care if this is something personal and that I am posting it on line for bulillions to see; billions are not going to see this, anyone (if they do read it) who reads this knows who I am and those of the ones that do know about the blog, wont read it.

For those that are struggling, it may not be ok right now and it may seem like the light can't even be seen at the end of the tunnel, like there is no one; I am telling you that it is going to be ok, that you are going to make it, no t because that's all you can do but because you ARE CAPABLE of doing this. God is with you, whether you believe in Him or not. God loves you and doesn't give anything to you that you are not able to handle. Sometimes our struggles amd trails break us so that God is able to remake us. He will build us up for His glory.

It is ok to cry and scream, and to feel like giving up. It's ok, we're only humans. Take that time to cry out to Him.

Niagara Falls

This Memorial Day weekend, I got the opportunity to go to Canada and see the Niagara Falls.

My super Supa :)

Watch "Beyonce Halo: solo dance practice" on YouTube

Pretty pictures

Got bored watching a movie

Grad School, what joy

I am currently applying to grad schools for social work, counseling and psychology. I only have one app for art therapy, and crossing my fingers to see if I get in. I want to go to grad school, but I'm extremely nervous thinking I'm not good enough. My older brother is pushing me, in the sense that he is keeping on my toes and making sure I meet my deadlines.

Here's hoping.

My Beasty, and his Beauty

I saw the 3D release of Beauty and the Beast. It was spectacular!! I loved it! But then again, it's my favorite story, so I'm kind of biased. Only thing that bothered me was the person I saw it with and the temperature in the theater. Soooo hot!! I was dehydrated by the end of the movie. And the person I saw it with, well I am sure they were bored. They kept texting through out the movie. But it was sweet that they came out with me and saw it.

Watching that movie made me think if I would ever have it in me to do something like that, to sacrifice myself to save someone. To put myself in danger. I understand that it's a made up stories, changed over the centuries and molded to fit it's audience. But it started off as a moral story that governesses told their charges. The story of Beauty and the Beast was used as an example to little girls of how a proper young lady should act, and how we shouldn't make harsh judgments because we never know who we're really judging and how it would affect us.

I so desperately want to be someone's Beauty, lol, and this is where you go.. ssaayy wwhhaattt? lol. It's true though, not just for me but for most girls. Most want to be that girl next door, that people look over but who is really a diamond in disguise meant only for one person. A person who doesn't even know they deserve it. Wow, I have read way too many books and watched one to many Hindi movies. I don't want to save someone, I know I can't and I do not try to delude myself that I can. I just want to find my Beast, my prince in disguise.

Deal

Ok, so I am part of this online dating site, as I have mentioned before (obviously I won't say the name, duh) and every now and then I get recommendations for possible matches. Now I can view them and have the chance to message them. Sometimes I chose not to, why should I message all the guys? No, it aiin't gonna work that way.

After you're recommended, you don't message me or whatever, I am deleting you! K? Great.